i'm so over it

over the past few months, i've come to realize that i expect too much from people. i guess it's too much to ask of your "friends" to come to you if they have a problem with you instead of talking behind your back to whomever will listen. it's apparently also presumptuous of me to think that if you apologize for something, a real friend would be willing to try to forgive you.

so far in 2007, my mantra has been: "i'm over it." i've had to deal with the near death of a parent, the continuing decline in health of another parent and the brush with death of one of my favorite uncles in the world. in the midst of all this, i'm trying to plan a future with pork chop, and the more i think about how i want our future to be, the more i realize that i don't want to be afflicted by all the drama i'm currently trying to ignore. is it too much to ask of people to just get on with their lives? i'm not sure why some people thrive on melodrama, because life is too short to be caught up in these stupid things. i'm over all the drama, all the back-stabbing, two-faced insincerity. i know what's important and these ""friends" aren't it.

i wish there was a clean cut off people who have long since been phoning in the friendship.